Self-Sabotage, Part 1

Wow, I have kind of suck at posting on here for a little while haven’t I? I feel the need to briefly discuss the topic of self-sabotage. Self-sabotage can be something like a recovering addict who decides to hand out with old friends that still do drugs. Self-sabotage can the recovering alcoholic that chooses to go to a bar with a friend. Both will tell themselves they will be fine, they will have control. Another is the man/woman that has fought so hard to lose those fifteen pounds, only to reward themself by going to the buffet. I do not think that deep down they want to slide backward. I do not think that is their desire at all. So why do we do it? We know what is right. We know what is wrong and detrimental. Time after time we still go back to that source of pleasure. This has been on my mind a lot lately. I know what I want for myself. I know what is right. Yet every time I walk another step closer to the goal of being my best self, I will invariably put a stick in my path and trip on it. I will then say,” how did I get here and why is this so hard?”. If I can figure out the answer to that…..well everything would change.