When I spoke with my support person the other day, she put words to something I had not yet been able to describe. She said that she had read or heard that one of the worst things is to mourn someone who is not yet dead. This was really a new concept to me. How could someone mourn someone who is not yet dead? And why did the whole concept ring so true relative to how I was feeling about this person in my life. I did some quick research(ie: I Googled it) and found it to be referred to as ambiguous grief. There are many reasons one can mourn someone who is not yet dead. The cases described in the articles I read are not the same as the situation I have been experiencing yet the result is the same. The person and relationship I once knew is gone……..and that sucks. I am going to explore and ponder this much further. I am not sure that it will make me feel better but maybe it will shift my perspective enough to at least make it tolerable……Again I find it is late. Too late to give this the time it needs to do a true deep dive into the subject. But at least it is being addressed. That in and of itself is a pleasant change. Until tomorrow……